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Dear Diary

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1.
I See Right Through You 03:39
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I SEE RIGHT THROUGH YOU Cutting off ties with everybody Deliberate digestion of the masses Clashes with all things that seem wrong Prolonged until i cut it off Drinking from a cup that's new and tastes metallic Sinful feelings of youth satanic Panic never hold on enjoy the ride All these feelings i just cant hide inside I....I see right through you Laugh at me yes your energies positive Yes in your mind but your souls getting negative Irritated neglected sedated Ha yes I drink another stimulant I keep pushing A pushing and a probing I'm loathing everything your saying Keep up my spirit with some laughter future is brighter I never stop i'm a fighter I....I see right through you (©): Luke A Wiliamson. 2011
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Yum Honey Bun 05:22
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YUM HONEY BUN Faces on my wall they stare down I’m trying not to die from speed a yeah I’m coming down Round me up with a cattle prod If I squint my eyes right I see visions of God Yeah Red lips on my tv suck dick Up and down my mind pretends my cock is his Sweaty palms Polluted brain I start my day in such a positive way Yeah Maybe I’ll call my Mother Maybe I’ll call my Father Maybe I’ll stay on the couch all day and not bother At least I’ll try to get my dick hard I rub it up and down with yesterdays lard I wanna fuck so get naked dear Orgasms you never fake them dear Lakes of cum I can smell Waterfalls straight out of hell Green wrists as i write Through the blinds I hide the sunlight Yeah I’m wondering where the night went as I sit here With trickles of sweat running down my hair Yeah I’m in my lair My dungeon with my whore Thinking of things I can do that break the law Yeah Up and down and down and up Pictures on my tv of people that fuck Sweating and fucking, sucking My arm bruised Shooting speed into my self is just yesterday's news Semen that’s fake and full of babies Screaming and screaming the cum is wasted daily Strung out and fucked up I think of death Turn my head Open my eyes I see lines of crystal meth Hence my mood is sick My throat is sore and my dick is thick Do I deserve you or will I plunge Into the deepest of lakes away from all the yummy fun Yum honey bun I live in a slum I smell like scum and I get fuck all done I said a yum honey bun I live in a slum I smell like scum and I get fuck all done yeah Should i take care of shit I don’t wanna Thinking of this and that and the other Am I problem I must discover Look down on myself as I compare myself to others Visions of porn as the blood flows Diluted mind I don’t know where to go Strung out and fucked as I fall into a slump Kidneys ache as i think I’ll take another bump Swill an elixir handed to my by God I had an in depth conversation with a frog on a log Wet and warty he reads my mind He see’s nothing of importance so holds up a warning sign “Stop Choose Nothing” The sign it states The frog gave a ribbit and jumped back in the lake The moral of this story is to shut up and chill Because reality is chosen by the colour of a pill You better get your fill You better get your fill Semen that’s fake and full of babies Screaming and screaming the cum is wasted daily Strung out and fucked up I think of death Turn my head Open my eyes I see lines of crystal meth Hence my mood is sick My throat is sore and my dick is thick Do I deserve you or will I plunge Into the deepest of lakes away from all the yummy fun Yum honey bun I live in a slum I smell like scum and I get fuck all done I said a yum honey bun I live in a slum I smell like scum and I get fuck all done yeah (©): Luke A Williamson. 2005
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Early Out Program 04:50
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EARLY OUT PROGRAM Roll into your town I wanna get some Frustrated wired I wanna have fun Thinking about nothing no apologies No Anxiety no worries Take it line em up and pull your head back You can’t return you can’t take it back Just swallow eat the whole thing Brain like jelly watch your head spin Gripple wrestle run around the pit Dance all night and watch others get sick Longing for some touch your gonna get it Wake up in the morning and regret it Spinning round and round you change your attitude Spiraling down and down no time to lose Mindset positive Reason to live Anyone can just slit their wrists There's Always A Vacancy In The Early Out program Rolling down the slope towards your grave See it clear yeah you know the way Fear agitated crop Visited by farmer death you’re not Up and down movement body attack Staccato feeling sudden just like you’re on crack Feel it smell it squash it put it all away Life is short so you’re gonna do it anyway Jumping up and down pull out the guts Twist ‘em around this experiment gone nuts Far removed you’ve lost your way Can’t remember which way you came Spinning round and round you change your attitude Spiraling down and down no time to lose Mindset positive Reason to live Anyone can just slit their wrists There's Always A Vacancy In The Early Out program (©): Luke A Wiliamson. 2011
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Self Destruct 03:06
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SELF DESTRUCT I wanna touch the lightening Demon inside just help me get through this Self destruct that's all I wanna do yeah Demon Inside Just help me get through this I wanna touch the lightening
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Flow Into Me 03:52
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FLOW INTO ME You won't see me coming Like an insect i'm small Creative creature un-recorded i crawl Yeah Intricate stand back as i spit A venom that's septic A poisonous shit Yeah That's how I fell sometimes A manic creature The music I plays taboo A special feature Life's leaches there sucking my soul My energy's low Flow into me Yeah my energy's low CHORUS Flow into me Yeah my energy's low Flow into me In my soul Yeah my energy's low Flow into me Yeah my energy's low Flow into me In my soul Yeah my energy Regardless of it Yeah I'd never change a thing My life is filled win sin after sin Grim as the devil and his energy unfolds I'm waiting to die so he can suck my soul Yeah Agitated Emotionless I'm physically weak I look at my hair Yeah I see a grey streak Life's leaches there sucking my soul My energy's low Flow into me Yeah my energy's low CHORUS (©): Luke A Williamson. 2011
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Burn My Soul 04:36
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BURN MY SOUL All these feelings inside are tearing me apart I’m looking and looking for some kind of spark To flare up catch fire and burn my goals Burn it all Burn my Soul -CHORUS- Cause I hope and pray each day I wake up and do it my way Yeah look in my eyes and see That there’s nothing that I wanna be yeah I hope and pray each day I wake up and do it my way Yeah look in my eyes and see that there’s nothing that I wanna be Kill myself capsize I blow it all up What’s left I’m outta luck One option button red I kill it all Burn it all Burn my Soul -CHORUS- Where does this life have to go I dig and dig in the ground just like some kinda mole Scraping and scratching Looking for purpose Burn my goals Burn my Soul Burn my Soul (REPEAT) Burn my -CHORUS-
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Mundane Faces 04:39
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MUNDANE FACES So what’s it gonna be Yeah you wanna be me Flow like me Taste like me I’m gritty Itchy with a back stare You better wait outside my dragons lair Filthy A mind complacent Venomous Scratchy like a snake tongue where you from Where you been are you unclean You couldn't handle the colours that I've seen I can’t contain this Mundane places I can’t contain this Mundane faces I can’t contain this I can’t contain this No Plastic minds Plastic brains Plastic thinking Plastic friends Pre programmed thought Pre programmed breeding Walmart reactions Walmart feelings What is it What’s up What am i listening to I wish you could see yourself through my eyes Like I do Fast food Reality TV Quick answers Big muscles and money What's it gonna be What's it gonna be I can’t contain this Mundane places I can’t contain this Mundane faces I can’t contain this I can’t contain this No
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Meth 05:09
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METH I want to quit Muscles are rigid I can’t wind down Stuck solid like a statue I stay Every muscle seized With a poison I eat in a capsule Disease Creative mind creative life Good friend died and left me so high I’m trapped in a body that won’t move I’m abused and confused this game I’m gonna lose Killing myself from all sides Killing myself just to get high Sit in a red throne and cry Tears fall down as I say goodbye To a life that’s rotting Burning out my ashes all will be forgotten All will be forgotten All will be forgotten Craving the needle Plant the seed of the the devil Evoke the beast Yeah Ha Ha Imagine a sickal Grow the crop of the demon Watch your brain swell as you enter your own hell On and on On and on On and on Your sanity’s prolonged Where you from I can’t remember December it’s a permanent winter Splinter the shards another pin prick Your body craves another fix Slowly enter the placenta It’s time for the adventure Hiss hiss all I hear is hiss Brain straining hallucinate like this Brought on by a damage a habit Masturbate for hour and hours Listen! Break the ice thoughts scattered Sounds like your brain is being splattered Shattered into a million pieces That’s the hiss That’s the hiss So where should I run to today Dismay My body’s made of clay Chalk scrape and scratch Burning cigarettes match after match Thinking of ex girlfriends and such Thinking of how I fucked it all up Pluck another hair from myself and burn it Running out of hair skins prefered it Why can I not find myself inside Why can I not find the light inside me When did all this damage begin Why can I not look at life with a grin Anything I can do to forget Look back on my life with so many regrets Try to find the strength in me It’s so cloudy here i just can’t see I want to quit

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released January 1, 2011

Jealous Jester, Luke Williamson

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